out of boredom...

You scored as Christianity. Your views are most similar to those of Christianity. Do more research on Christianity and possibly consider being baptized and accepting Jesus, if you aren't already Christian. Christianity is the second of the Abrahamic faiths; it follows Judaism and is followed by Islam. It differs in its belief of Jesus, as not a prophet nor historical figure, but as God in human form. The Holy Trinity is the concept that God takes three forms: the Father, the Son (Jesus), and the Holy Ghost (sometimes called Holy Spirit). Jesus taught the idea of instead of seeking revenge, one should love his or her neighbors and enemies. Christians believe that Jesus died on the cross to save humankind and forgive people's sins. Christianity 83% Judaism 75% Paganism 67% Buddhism 58% Islam 50% Satanism 38% Hinduism 25% agnosticism 8% atheism 0% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com

F1... here i come!

got myself 2 tickets to catch the formula 1 race in sepang!

uncertainties

Can you hear me, my love?
Yearning for a kiss, a hug
But only in darkness, in shadows
For you have him and I have her

While I’m waiting for your love,
Are you kissing him? Hugging him?
My heart is battered
My pride not withstanding

Must be hard for you as well
To know that my hugs belong to her
To learn that my lips kisses another
Can you live with that?

What have we, between us?
I have never felt a love like this
I have never felt a bond like this
So strong and yet so very fragile

How do we go through our days?
All I need is your affection, your love
All I need to know is that I’m not alone
With that I shall be strong, waiting

How do you survive this?
Are you fighting your wills as well?
What do you need? Let me know
Let me fight your battles and wars

I will be there, no matter what
You will always be in my heart
My love for you has grown
Too deep, too fast to say no


ps: this is the first time i've written anything bout love. i don't know if it's any good.

disclaimer: the characters of "you", "him", "i" and "her" are purely fictional and does not imply on myself or anyone i know. the meaning of this article is absolutely not associated with me or anyone i know.

a done deal?

my friend and i made a verbal agreement today... in 13 years from now, when i'm 35 and he's 37, we'll meet in sepang f1 circuit to race each other. i'll be there in my evo6 and he'll be waiting in his lotus elise... =)

seems like a pretty got deal to me... i wonder what's the probability of it going through? will we even remember it 13 years from now? let this be a time capsul - a reminder... =)

third entry

three entries in one hour? that ain't me! =)
well, this is me... i have got nothing to write about actually... plenty to do and read though - got two papers to sit for next week...
just that i'm feeling so bloody bored! and there's no one around to humor me... damn pathetic.. i know... but what the heck...
been thinking a lot (dreaming) lately... just feels so cramped up as a student... can't wait to embark on a journey to challenge the world as a working adult... i might regret this line after 20 years at the same job... =)
guess that's enough crap for a day... =)
ps: i've got a stupid smile plastered on my face all day long though i dun really feel like smiling. no idea why.

in the mood

happy to say that i'm in the mood to write once more. not due to anger. not due to frustration. erm... what the heck - i just feel like writing...
anyway, wrote 2 pieces in about 30 mins... the other piece won't be posted as i dun really feel good reading it... =)
let me know what u think of it ok?

faith

we, humans - how naive can we be?
we trust only what we see
believe only what we know
easier to trust than to believe
easier to believe than to have faith

without faith, what are we?
without faith, where will we be?
He suffered and died for us to see
and yet we are blinded by ignorance
do we take His sacrifice so lightly?

as certain as the next heartbeat
as certain as the sun will rise
faith will guide us, lead us
through the valley of darkness
through the treacherous path of life

reach out and feel its warmth
take a breath and smell its sweetness
embrace it with open arms fools!
it's your only light through darkness
it's your only ticket to eternal life

a slow start?

amazingly, this would only be my third blog for the year and it's already going to be march soon. no matter how many times i say it or hear it from someone else, i still can't believe how fast time flies. feels like it's only the start of the year and before i know it, 3 months have flown past. this semester is especially hectic for me but i do not know the reason why. i've had so much planned for the year but now it seems that all my plans are gonna go down the drain. it would be amazing enough if i manage to stay in the robotic competition being held and also join in the project under a certain dr liew in uniten.

for the robotic competition, well it's kinda like a game of basketball and we've gotta come up with bots (auto and manual) to play the game. initially i thought it would be fun and challenging but now that i realized how little i know, i'm beginning to learn how tough it actually is. as for the project under dr. liew, ermm... i'm not so sure yet as to the objective of the research. all i know is the fact that i'm gonna be learning a hell lot more from him about aviation practically than i ever would learn in any other classes in uniten. whether i make it through or not, we'll just have to wait and see.

and something else... although everything is getting better (my life in uniten, studies etc) i somehow wanna get more in touch with my emotions. especially my negative emotions (depression, anger etc). i feel like it's the only thing that gives me the passion to keep on writing. although that would mean all my articles would be on the darker side, but at least i will be able to write. i haven't wrote for quite sometime now and i do miss writing a lot.

another thing that i really missed - FOOTBALL! it's tough getting enough people to play it and to make matters worse, half of my friends do not enjoy playing it. man, i've gotta get the right group of friends! however, i would have to say, even if i meet the right people, i still wouldn't be able to play at least for a couple of months. my right knee hurts like hell right now thanks to an old injury. i don't know how long it would take for it to heal but i hope it's soon. really miss slamming the ball into the back of the net. glorious feeling!

last but not least, an update on my relationship. actually, this would be a short msg to ly. our relationship has been going on for so long now (5 years) that everything felt routine. our phone calls, our dates... even our hugs and kisses lack passion... it's been a tough couple of weeks or was it months? and perhaps we both have changed. the way we see our future, the way we value certain things in life. you want it simple but i've got a complicated, weird way of thinking. i miss the times when we could just talk and laugh about everything. that feeling seems to have evaded us. i dun wanna live in the present, thinking of past memories. i want to live it. i need to.

however, for the past few days, things seemed to be getting better, albeit slowly. i know you do not want to rush things, and i, myself find it more comfortable maintaining our relationship like this, with minimum commitment. at least for the moment, just to steady the ship through the storm. i'll let you be the captain of the ship for now ok? we'll go at your speed. i know you are tired of arguing. so am i. it still hurts to hear you cry. as you've said before - let's take things slow. one day at a time. but my love for you will always remain true. i love you, no matter what.

hmm.. it's getting personal... guess i'd better stop here. actually it doesn't matter, no one reads my blog anyway... =)

for the record

a friend of mine told me that my posts is so full of dissatisfaction and it seems that i have so much hatred towards life. well, i just wanna straighten out the facts for the record here. i know what my friend said is true. but it is not because i'm dissatisfied with life or whatsoever. in fact, i'm very grateful for the life i'm living right now. i'm thankful that god has blessed me with so many gifts and for me to be able to lead this lifestyle which many could not achieve.

so why the angry posts? why so much hatred? well, all those anger is directed at no one other than yours truly. it is my way of telling myself how much i need to improve. i'm disappointed with all the things that i couldn't achieve, all the things that's out of my reach. i know no one is perfect, but what's the harm in trying to be? why do you think my blog is titled unfinished_article? i am the unfinished article. we all are. we're not perfect and neither are we complete. life is all but a journey for us.

i know it's difficult to understand me. i confuse myself sometimes. well, i just like to think that i'm different.

2005 - a year of hope

"I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go.

And help us to be wise in times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way

Lead us to the place, guide us with your grace

To a place where we'll be safe"

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- celine dion, the prayer

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*one minute silence*

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after a year of trouble and turbulence, let us start the year on a fresh note. the past shall remain in our memories; bitter or sweet. the future - times for us to look forward to. and we will live in the present to the fullest; relishing and savoring every moment.

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how's that for the opening of my first post for 2005? and how's the new outlook of my blog? new year, new look, new person? nah... i'm still the same guy as i always will be - good or bad... hahaha...

i haven't been attending to my blog as frequent as i wanted to and it's already been a month since my last entry which means there is a lot of catching up to do. so, what's new this year? nothing much really... still stuck with the normal routines. the only new event was the fact that i joined an engineering competition which basically humbled me and brought me crashing back to earth. but the experience was invaluable to us (at least that's what i'd like to think...) and there was a consolation. we won the best booth award... not really an engineering award huh? there'll be more details on the competition when i get the pics up...

other than that, i'm currently in the middle of my midterm papers - two down, two more to go. i don't really mind the papers though. what i do mind is the timing. my midterm break (next week) is sandwiched in between my papers! how am i gonna enjoy my break? and chinese new year too? damn... but there is a bright side to it though. i'll have more time to study and looking at the subjects i'm taking this sem, i'll need all the help i can get to score.

well, i guess that's all that happened for the past month... and what am i doing right now? waiting for man utd vs arsenal at 4 am. that'll be around 2 hours from now...

my prediction - man utd 3 arsenal 2

that's all i'm gonna say bout that match for now... =)

hmmm... i guess that's all. gotta get started with my stacked up assignments. and to end this post, here's some pics i took during the new year eve dinner at jason's place. not too many turned up but i had a good time anyway... =)

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me and ly

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me and jason

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cute guy ain't he?

last entry of 2004

it's been so long since i last blogged from uni but recently, uniten had this new IT building and it's time to give it a try. i've gotta admit it's pretty cool. much better than the engineering block for sure. anyway, i've got a class in 30 mins and since i've gotta settle some stuff on my project after the class and then rush to jason's place for the new year eve's dinner, i guess that would leave me with precious little time to blog again before midnight. meaning? this will be my last entry for the year 2004... hahaha...
so what can i say bout 2004? generally it's been good. i'm finally feeling a bit more comfortable studying in uniten, finally being able to adapt to my surroundings. quite a lot have changed compared to my first sem here and the changes were pretty much good for me (it's not great though...) however, i've really gotta improve on my time management and to set my priorities straight. gotta stop ignoring the people beside me (especially ly) when i'm pressured by my studies... conclusion? 2004 ain't that bad... =)
with all that said, i must add that i've got a much higher expectation for 2005... 2004 was good, 2005 better be great! hahaha... but we'll just have to wait and see don't we?
anyway, it's time to say farewell again (the new building is cool, but it's bloody far from the main engineering block... damn...)
have a happy, happy new year everyone!!!
and god bless...
see ya in 2005... hahaha...

time flies...

i was watching a replay of a 1996 FA cup semi final match between man utd and chelsea on espn when i suddenly realized how fast time flew by... as i watched the players (beckham, giggs, keane, cantona) play, i remembered this was the team that made me support man utd in the first place. especially cantona. man, he's exceptional. and after that, another fact hit me - this match took place 8 years ago! 8 years!

i wondered how much i've change over the years. did i turn out to be a better man or worse? i look at the players and from my point, they haven't changed a bit. their style, their character, their movement.

and tomorrow will be the start of a new year. 2004 will be history and we will usher in 2005. how will it be? one thing for sure, it will start on a solemn tone. the tsunami disaster which hit the south east asia is leaving such a huge impact that it will take years for this region to recover. i've always known that mother nature has a funny but cruel way of reminding us just how powerful she can be if she wanted to. just as we were taking her for granted, bam! she hits us with something like this. but never before has it been so fearsome. although malaysia (especially kl) wasn't as badly hit compared to our neighbors but the fact that tens of thousands lost their lives does have a huge impact.

anyway, all that happened made me recall the good old times. and i've realized that family and friends come first before anything else in life (my life at least)... so just let me take this moment to thank all my friends and family (i dun really know which category does ly belong to?) for being there for me through good times and bad... i dun wanna name names coz you guys know if you are my friends or not and i won't hurt anyone's feelings this way... hahaha... however, the few who are really special to me (jacky, kam, jason, zi hui, ang), you guys have shown me the true meaning of friendship...

and not to forget, ly... better mention her here before she gets jealous... hahaha... well, like kam said, new year's eve will always be special to us... we're going into our fifth year now... amazing isn't it? to think that i barely knew here when we started our relationship... yup.. that's right, we weren't even friends... it was just my gut feeling that she's special and the way she made me feel so comfortable when i'm around her... she will always be special to me, an amazing girl... i'm glad she's mine... =)

i could go on and on about the past but i really should stop here... it's getting really late and i have to get back to my reality and the present... i've got loads of assignments and the projects ain't going on smoothly... my tests are coming up and i haven't started studying... hahaha... ain't the reality harsh? well, i'll save all that for my next blog...

have a happy new year everyone and god bless!!!

till next time...

a long break

hi! i'm back after a long, long, long break from the world of bloggers... needed that break though... set my priorities right, getting back to my studies, trying to get back on track with all the things going on right now... i've been busy...

anyway, while i was away, i've turned 21, started a new semester, spent my christmas in penang (in the midst of the tsunami scare), got my ears pierced again and i've been extremely busy huh? hahaha...

at first it was fun with all the project and stuff to do... but now with the sem in full swing, it's getting pretty tiring. i barely have enough time left in my day to even meet my gf! everything feels so weird now. i've got to plan for everything in advance. can't go out when i feel like going out anymore. well, this sem is gonna be challenging... anyway, as long as i can juggle my time well, i guess this would also be an interesting time for me in uniten. it would allow me to judge my true capabilities... hahaha... it's a load of crap... =)

come to think of it, this time has been good for my relationship with ly too. i've said before that i've been seriously reconsidering my relationship with her. however, this time spent apart has made us miss each other more and has made my heart grow fonder. we still have our frequent arguments but i look forward to seeing her so much more. we've got a date coming this thurs and for the first time after so long, i'm actually thinking about it, making plans... man, this is weird!

anyway, i'm really looking forward to the new year. it's probably gonna start with a bbq dinner at a friends house. and after that... i can just hope for the best... =)

ps: it feels good to be back...

feeling lucky...

i just got my results of last sem a couple of days ago. and i just wanna say that i was really lucky to have achieved the results i did. it wasn't perfect but it's still much better than i expected... =)

a trip down south

i traveled south with ly today, headed to port dickson (it's the nearest beach available). actually, i've always wanted to go on a road trip with her. plus, i've just realized i've never watched the sun set beyond the horizon before. i left home about 4:15 in the evening, and the trip took about 80 minutes.
well, nothing much happened in the trip, so it was basically a good, relaxing day out. but for me, it was an important trip. as you might have noticed, i've stopped blogging for a while. it's not because i was busy or lazy, but just the fact that i'm in no mood to write, or talk. i've suddenly lost the zest for life. i have even considered breaking up this relationship with ly. depression probably. my life became a routine cycle. the same events repeating day after day. however, this trip reminded me why i was with her in the first place. it made me realize that i was taking her for granted all this while and how much this relationship means to the both of us.
hopefully, i will be able to turn over a new leaf after this. no more depression. no more frustration.
back to the trip. even though i was unable to actually see the sun go down, blocked by some stupid clouds, the view was still spectacular. and to be able to witness that with ly by my side made it even more memorable. it felt good lazing by the seaside. a new environment, the smell of the sea breeze. refreshing.
i have no idea why but a good, long drive always feels good. i just love the feeling of cruising behind the wheel. not too fast, not too slow... so, so relaxing... =)

metaphorical pic...

i just like this pic a lot. somehow, it is me and ly. from the colour to the taste.

holiday blues...

i've had a busy holiday ever since it started on the 5th of nov. can't remember a single night in which i've stayed home. i should be ecstatic but surprisingly i find myself feeling kinda blue. i don't know why. probably i should spend a few days at home instead...

well, ly is gonna be having her exams soon (it's gonna be over in a weeks time), so i'm hoping things will get better...

actually, before the holidays started, i wanted to blog daily. but now, i just don't have the mood to get anything done. nothing appeals to me. and this blog seems so... dead. i know. coz that's exactly how i'm feeling, which is weird. i should be happy but i'm depressed. how can that be? this situation is really beginning to get on my nerves. i wanna write a bloody long entry but my mind just doesn't allow it. what the hell is wrong with me?

time to learn...

ok, the previous post, i was just testing on how to post a pic on my blog... i really have got no idea on how to do it... kam, how do you put a pic on your profile? and do you use 'hello' to post your pics on your blog? man... i wanna learn... but i am LAZY... and kam, if you dun mind, how do you actually change the template of your blog?

anyway, today i had fun... played football from 9 to 11... pm! hahaha... my parents think i'm nuts... now, i'm dead tired and my bed's calling me, so today's entry will be an extremely short one... hahaha...

ps: the questions above are not directed to kam alone... if there is any kind souls out there willing to teach, i'm willing to learn... =)

testing...

me and ly at bukit tinggi

back... and blogging...

i'm back at last... man, that has got to be the worst exam week ever... it was so depressing and stressful... and i definitely do not want to remind myself bout it, so i won't say anything till my results are out... anyway, i'm grateful it's over...
so let's see, one month for me to kick back and relax... i've already made up on lost time - been paying need for speed underground non-stop for the past two days... i didn't even wanna come online... hahaha...
plans for the holidays...
1) sky-diving with jason though we might face some problems coz we can't find anyone else with enough guts to join us... they only hold classes for a minimum of 5 ppl... =(
2) spend as much time as possible with ly. she has helped me so much through my exam week even though she's down with fever... she has always been there for me, supporting me when i'm emotionally drained... and the fact that she has exams coming up next week makes it even worse... man, i miss her sooo much... muacks!
3) meet up with old friends for a drink since it's generally holidays for everyone around here... =)
4) play as much football as possible...
5) go out on a road trip with ly... it's been so long since we last spend time having fun... =(
6) go on at least one road trip with friends (min 100km away from my house)... Especially if that sky-diving plan doesn't take off...
7) ermm... i'll think of something else later... =)
well, if half of what i planned takes off, i'll consider this holiday a good one... hahaha...

time for some updates on myself - first of all, my decision on the scholarship. i rejected it. don't ask me why. i don't know if it's the right thing to do but that's what i did. i went to consult 2 of my lecturers before i made that decision and both of them agreed that i should not accept the scholasrship. and both of them seem to have more confidence in me than myself... that's strange... however, according to them, with my results, it's better if i keep my options open... and they said that i'll have a brighter future if i'm not bonded... well, only time will tell if that's true...

i wonder if i'll live to regret that decision?